my 21st is tomarrow, i am going out tonight with my g-parents but finally i will be 21!!!!!! in less then 12 hours!!!!!!!!!!

My boyfriends pet bird tank died sometime yesterday. It was so sad i found him dead on the bottom of his cage. My bf didn't even make it down stairs to see him before he started crying. Then once he did he sat on the floor screaming and crying asking tank what happened. I will miss him very much. I just feel so sad one for my bf, whom i have never seen cry like that before, and two because i feel like it's my fault some how and that i failed him as his mommy.

Tank you will be missed and me and Matthew love you very much! And Im sorry i didn't hold you the day before you died, just because i thought you were going to bite me was no reason to ignore your plee for love. Im sorry tank and I hope your in a nice place with lots of love and little bells to attack and people to "play" with.
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Plus i just looked it up and he was sick...he had all the signs of it.. the white stuff on his beek, cloudy eyes, fluffing up. I feel so bad that i didn't notice it i really wish i had changed out his food and taken him to the vet the first time i notice it. I know that he was very aggresive but still...

Am i a bad person? comments? i really feel so responsable for this i should have done something!!!

today is the first day of my jr. year of college. I am in a computer lab right now just wasting time till my next class. So far it's going ok just so sleepy not used to getting up at 7:00 am lol. other then that nothing to big... my gf broke up with me and my bf cheated on me but other then that nothing to special.

first off i can't find my expensive headphones for my ipod and i am afraid i lost them at the movies last night so thats bugging me ... and i have a black widow in my back yard so that's creepying me out and when i went to take the trash out i got bit on the foot by something and now im scared that it was a black widow so im freaking out im keeping calm but i want to cry!!!! so far it's just itchy... no pain yet but i have to wait like 5-9 hours after the bit to make sure that i will be ok.... on top of that my bf is out of town right now in a bar drinking and ignoring me....

i showed him a picture of my best friend in the world, the one i love like a sister and he said "she looks like a butch.." then the bad word for a lesbian *i won't say it because it's really offensive to me* well i told him to take it back and he just laughed he has never met her or anything and he just makes that judgment and calls her that. I mean why would you say that about some one that you don't even know!!! he is heartless he doesn't care how much she means to me and to say that about her is offensive to me and her so ... i just can't belive he would say that the heartless jerk !!!